knock knock

so i have been reminded by a friend that i have been left out on dropping some points in this blog for quite sometime.

i was asked on how have i "celebrated " my birthday. It did rang a bell that i have written bout the third of March the year before; why not this year?

it was followed by my opinion on birthdays. Honestly, i haven't really thought about that till that question was sprung to me.

"Erm, could be said so. Birthday,to me, not to say it is something huge yet not pointless. Just felt that it is the day remind someone that he/she is of a significance to himself and probably others who are important to him. It's like a shout out "hello, I'm here"

Those were my response.

it traits a string questions to myself of what am I doing here- here , as in this place, this time.
People have always said -Live the moment
and yes, people have also said- plan your future.
Believe me, it sounded as crazy and as stupid as I am, these two contradicting questions haven't made my lousy life any easier.

My new year resolutions were the part of "plan your future"
My wish of going into diving, wanna go for LASIK ( no shame, am I? LOL) were the part of me who wants to "live the moment'
dilemma dilemma dilemma.
you consider money and time, people and place, this and that, blah blah blah.
in the end, i never come into a conclusion; that's probably why im a screwed up single man in his mid twenties reaching 30s 4 year down the road with no career nor property enhancements. then, i'd say to myself, hey, live the moment! yes, its a cycle again for me; chasing my own tail- a dumb ass.

i may sound as lame it is; the recent natural disasters do knock my head a little; but NOT enough to help me choose the way i wanna live my life.
as the old wise poem says:" two roads diverge in a yellow road"
yet, i haven;t picked mine. i don't know when im gonna pick one.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011