Mental fatigue

going through ortho, i bel;ieve gonna be one of toughest job yet.
i do not like ortho to begin with,
and the sprained and having to tag til ten pm yet feeling not knowing a thing makes feeling even worse.
I feel inadequate. Seriously , my ortho knowledge is deep shallow. I am too tired to read up. I have no interest to to brush up. I have to be competent, and im in serious doubt of myself.
i felt so helpless.
i don't know what to do with myself.
i seriously don't know
i couldn't breath.
I felt like being screwed up tight in a jar.Tight. No leakage. Helpless.

Sunday, October 31, 2010