if you haven't knew, just refer the article below:

Though it may not concern most of you guys, but to me the fact that this country is thinking of such solutions to solve the shortage of medical staff made me feel that I've wasted my life living in a country ruled by such "wise" men.
Do you build another five more stories on top of a five floor building built on a base which was intended to support five? without further strengthening / reconstructing or making the slight adjustments to its base/structure?
reason: imbalance of demand and supply in that building.
I don't know; i aint an engineer, maybe ah seong can help me out.

Just to sprinkle another pinch of salt onto this open wound,yesterday, i was just trying to convince one my friends so as to not to go to S'pore to service. Now, I felt like a dumbasss. Yeah, a total dumbass.

With the pay that we had, so as to medical professionals in other developing country
( didn't malaysia herself claim that she is a developing country, and not a 3rd world country? so make your judgment and comparison accordingly. Do you compare a 3 year old to a 13 year old? no, you don't) ,
and the workload that we have ; plus the statement : "the labour law does not apply to you, so `cuti itu bukan hak anda' anda tidak ada had limit jam bekerja"
( which makes it seem reasonable that we work like 30 + hours straight yet expected to perform at top notch? ),
so, who are we? labor? i guess not; from the statement above which clearly hitting our eardrums on the day even before we start working. logically, also not, cos maids or foreign workers are entitled to holidays and there is a limitation of hours of which they need to work. Otherwise, the employer can be sued for abuse.
Nah, our employer can't be sued. and the labor law also does not apply to us, so we ain't labors
erm... some robot i think?
opps, maybe not, malaysia still can't make robots yet.
They're still trying to make good cars and selling them at half price for arabians. Did i say good? sorry again. way far behind from good i think. now, remind me again, who's thinking of profits??? Doctors? hmm... maybe they're right. Maybe they shouldn't. Doctors need not eat or pay bills cos the government have nice chilly floors for the stupid doctors to sleep on with a layer of blanket on top it. maybe they don't even need a floor, cos they'll just have to work 24/7 , then they need not buy a house Eat? need not! just work. so why think of profits? just work!


I've read a letter from a smart reader of the star who wrote to the editor to tell us that people don't die of exhaustion, so, be grateful and, doctors should work and don't complain.

oh yeah, that fella also wrote: from the pictures that these doctors put on their social networking of their traveling and them being active in such networking, that means they are actually free and should instead spend more time in their work and complain less.

oh, I am so grateful to work; oh , i am so grateful that the nice government has extended our service. i should not have traveled with my 30 days of break out of 365/366 working days. I should be working 365 out of 365 days. Oh, i need to be more grateful. I should not have a facebook/blog. I should not get online. I should just work, and work.Why? you may ask. The logic?
here: right now, after i finished work, newspaper would be all sold out, i could only resort to reading papers online. so, if i just work and work, i won't online and won't read the news thus won't complain so much; cos i won't know what's going on! logical right? these people are really smart aren't they?they are.

sorry guys if i offended any of you. I don't mean to brag with the pay that I have and i do know that getting a job is difficult these days. but i'm just trying to make my point and you drop your words as you may wish to.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

passion & work . DO they co-exist to most (or any) of us?

how my life , or shall i say my working life has been for the past one week or so?

Pretty much I would say;
Out of no where, doing my oncall, i had the opportunity to assist in an insertion of an internal cardiac pacemaker for a 3rd degree heart block patient. Not to be boastful, just I noticed how coincidental things can be. She happened to be the patient whom i clerked during my on call the other day. Getting the opportunity to observe the so called "once in a blue moon " procedure ( in Hospital Teluk Intan at least, I've no idea bout the other hospital)would actually be enough for me. Having the opportunity to assist (although i was only just dabbing and holding the head) was certainly a bonus. It has been a known fact I aint no one passionate ; but am I? i was actually kinda excited about it.

Patient collapsing, death knocking at the door has became so common,that I've lost count.

That one day, one patient collapsed in the early morning and another in the noon. Nurses were talking about who's the third one cos they said " they come in three". Later of the day, a man in his twenties passed away. Intubation and CPR. Emergency trolley and drugs. Masks and gloves. bloods. drips. paper works. It became so routine. I have doubts.

Another man collapsed today. I clerked him, presented the case to MO, practically almost handling the patient on my own.but through he didn't make it and left.
Drugs were given. Waiting for the cardiac monitor to show asytole.
Son was crying. The son who takes care of the father. Who rarely cared. Fed him, talk to him and takes him to shower every morning
Nurse walked in.
" dah ke belum"
" kalau sudah, nak call mortuary , banyak lagi kerja nak buat"
"please wait"

" leceh lah"
" report belum siap"
" lama lagi ke?"
Son was crying
I ignored the lady in white. Feel punching her in the face rather than just slapping her.

To me, she is ******* inhumane. ( insert whatever word you wish t in the * part)
Maybe I do not have a 100% passion in my work, and I complained/ complains a lot. But I think i do care. To those who treat patients as just paperwork and just just wanna finish and passover and bugging people for incident reports when there are so much more important stuff to do; you gain no respect for me.
I hope i care. I hope I would not take things for granted.

To those who left, may you have peace.

Thursday, January 14, 2010